Ok so something  has gone wrong. My grand mother died today 4/18/08 and its weried. usualy when I thought this would happen a would find my self thinking that i would sob and sleep, but I'm fine. I m very shocked though. This woman has had cancer, several heart problems, lived through times when she was told she only had one month to live and still got up and lived a cheerful life and lived a good life for many years with many close calls with death. It's just wrong she was recovering so well from another problem and seemed fine three days earlier but yesterday she started to bleed and lost a lot of blood and from that I really don't know what happened. About the last two hours she began gasping for air and looking around the room with lifeless eyes then calmed down and then i guess accepted the fact that she was dyeing and let it go she just kept breathing slower and slower and then stoped breathing. I don't really know why im posting this blog i guess it's just a way of mourning.
 But really in the face of death you shouldn't mourn the death but praise the life well lived, because life is just another part of a cycle no matter what you are Athiest or Christian or whatever that's true. Really life is just the process of leaving your mark on others lives. She left a good mark in everyones life she could so I see it as a life well spent, not a death to early.